Transcending Good and Evil

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I want to preface this post by saying that it can in some ways be viewed as a kind of warning. We have always tried to present the positive side of Satanism and confront some of the misinformation that often circulates on the media. However, Satanism is certainly a darker path and is not right for everybody. Moreover I think it is fair to say that anybody who takes this path will have to confront aspects of themselves and of society that most people prefer not to.

Satanists and most of us who follow a Left Hand Path; a path associated with darkness, cannot help but be exposed to evil; whatever one considers evil to be. There have been times on this spiritual journey where I have come close to describing myself as fully evil and seeing evil itself as the truest expression of pure Satanism. This may come as a surprise to some who know me, even in Satanic circles, because I have usually taken a public stance which is quite different to that. But I think that all of us on the Satanic path are forced to experience and confront evil in a way that most people never do. We each go through stages in our relationship with evil and come to our own conclusions about it. Some on this path do become everything the wider world considers to be evil and are not afraid to admit that to themselves and others. Some take pride in describing themselves as evil. I do not go quite that far but I certainly do not consider or describe myself as good either. I am Satanic; and that is enough.

It is true however that the deeper one becomes involved in Satanism, the further you travel into the territory that is often described as evil by others. You may blaspheme, you may participate in black masses and other dark rituals, you may practice magic defined by others as black, the  use of blood and various sexual acts may become part of your magical and ritual life. And of course you see the enemy of Christianity and several other religions, Satan; The Devil, as your guide and inspiration. You may work with demons and dark spirits. You may see the diabolical as your kin and hell as your spiritual home. I have done all of these things and I must say that once you start to explore this territory it is intoxicating and addictive. This is where the danger lurks for us. In this new territory where there are no clear maps or boundaries, it is easy to get lost. What do I mean by that?

What I mean is that we are exploring areas or our mind and psyche that are considered taboo and forbidden by many and within those dark territories there are things we don’t really think are wrong but there are other things which still may be wrong or evil or against our true nature and judgement. In the darkness and the ecstasy of exploration we can confuse those things. To put it another way, we can begin to see and experience everything in this territory as equally valid and equally much our true nature. We glimpse that we are capable of every kind of evil and may come to feel that every kind of evil is acceptable for us. This is a stage that most, if not all, people who take a Left Hand Spiritual path; or in a Jungian sense explore their dark side, must go through. I have had moments like that. I have had moments when I have felt that to kill somebody who stands in my way would be no more wrong than fully enjoying my sexuality. I have had moments when I have felt that the power to be sadistic and cruel in the extreme without any guilt or shame would be a beautiful and liberating thing. Yes, I have had moments when I have felt that everything I personally abhorred and previously thought to be really evil is everything I actually want to be. I doubt that there are many people on a similar path who have not occasionally had these thoughts and feelings.

I should add that these moments were just that: moments. When the moments were over they became stimuli for deep soul searching and internal dialogue. They became uncomfortable points of self reflection. They became lessons which slowly and uncomfortably lead to personal growth and understanding. But it is easy to see and understand how for some people (and I would never say that I am immune) these moments could become extended… These moments could become their new reality.

Yet still I think this a path worth continuing on. It is dangerous, but it is worth it for some of us (including my partner and my daughter). I would like to speak about why I think it is worth it in the context of what Left Hand Paths are really about. And finally I would like to indicate why I think that being a Theistic Satanist offers a certain amount of guidance and protection that may be missing in some other Left Hand Paths.

The idea of the Left Hand Path first surfaced in Eastern, Tantric traditions. To over-simplify it was seen as a difficult but sometimes faster path to enlightenment which depended heavily on breaking the taboos and conventions of a given time and place. For example, within communities that were vegetarian, Tantric practioners of the left hand path would eat meat. In places where sexual morals were conservative and restrictive, those of the left hand path would explore and practice all forms of sexuality that were considered taboo or depraved. The idea was two fold. Firstly (and this may be a more modern and more western interpretation) breaking conventions and taboos can be seen as a test of the moral validity of such taboos in the first place. Secondly (and perhaps most importantly in the original traditions) the aim was for the soul to remain untainted no matter how much the body was engaged with material depravity and corruption; to remain true to your higher self in the midst of the most extreme material experiences.

I try to incorporate both these aspects into my own version of the left hand path and try to remind myself of the point of it all as often as possible. Thus with each taboo that I choose to break, I evaluate all that I gain or loose by doing so and come to a new value judgement of my own about how I should regard that thing or that action myself. Moreover, when I am momentarily overwhelmed by the sensation or possibilities of something, I try not to let it overpower or consume me but rather allow my higher self to observe and note it. A little bit of Buddhist knowledge and background is very helpful here.

So an understanding of what the Left Hand Path is about can be very helpful and protective; I would say essential. However personally I find that that alone is not enough. In the moments where I have been in most danger of losing myself, it was in fact the presence of Satan that saved me.

Satan first permeated my soul in the shape of the Pagan Horned God, a figure whose voice called out to me to be heard rather than side-lined or ignored. Within the circles I moved in, people were appalled or even terrified that their somewhat neutered Horned God might be associated with the Christian Devil. Yet to me the similarities were clear. I then began to see the Christian portrayal of Satan as false and misleading. I felt His displeasure at being portrayed in such a limited and entirely negative way. And it was because I began to recognize the depiction of Satan as entirely evil as false that I became a Satanist. So when I am exploring the darker areas of my soul, it is a voice of wisdom that guides me and in particular urges me not to linger in dangerous areas for too long. It is Satan once again reminding me that he is not the caricature of evil that Christians would have us believe.

The Satanic path does require us to explore the nature of evil within ourselves and beyond, but it certainly does not require us to become evil.

I titled this post “transcending good and evil” but that might be a little misleading. What this post is about and indeed what Satanism itself is about to a large degree is transcending other people’s definitions of good and evil. As Satanists we all eventually leave behind worldly notions of good and evil and trust instead on our Satanic instincts. But we train and hone those instincts. The lessons can be hard and we can get lost but we learn and we grow. We are always accountable for our own actions and choices. We allow ourselves more freedoms but those freedoms have dangers. This is the path we have chosen but our safety on the path is not guaranteed. We can fall. We can get lost. Some people do.

For me personally (headstrong and arrogant as I can be), a focus on the true nature of Satan and a willingness to heed his advice is the strongest safety line.

For the benefit of anybody who has been skim reading this without much concentration or understanding what I am saying is that while I have glimpsed my own potential to be evil (and will do again I am sure) I have chosen not to be, and that it is Satan who keeps my moral compass pointing in the right direction.

And if you are still confused don’t worry, but don’t ever explore Satanism; you are not ready.

Cassie

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Six Six Six

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The number of the beast. A number close to our hearts. Perhaps one day we will write an exposition of the deeper meanings and historical significance of that number which is taboo for some. But this is not that post.

This is a post in which we three Satanists give our personal answers to the same six questions about our religion and philosophy.

How has Satanism changed you?
What is Satan to you?
Do you consider yourself good or evil?
What is the most important lesson Satanism has taught you recently?
What do you think about other religions?
Are you going to hell?

Tina

How has Satanism changed me?

I would say that Satan and Satanism have been a large part of my growing up and it speeded that process up. It has made me feel more free and independent. And much, much more confident. It has helped me to be the real me instead of the person other people maybe wanted to see. If it hadn’t been for Satanism I think I would still be trying to please everybody a bit too much and I would always take the safe option. I think in my mind and maybe in my body I’d be like at least a year younger than I feel now.

What is Satan to me?

In my imagination I think of Satan like a wise old uncle that I love and respect but makes me a bit nervous. But I think in reality Satan is a force in the universe like electricity or gravity that only some of us can feel and connect with. And it is part of us and we are part of it.

Do you consider yourself good or evil?

I don’t believe anything is good or evil in itself, including me. I can be good or bad depending on the situation. I am on Satan’s side. If that is evil then so am I.

What is the most important lesson Satan has taught me recently?

I don’t know. Maybe to be a bit more patient. Also if I want to do things which can be a bit unhealthy like smoking I should balance it with something healthy like running.

What do I think about other religions?

Some of them may have some good ideas in them but most of them are spoiled by idiots. And they have too much about obeying Gods and not enough about enjoying life.

Am I going to hell?

I don’t believe there is an actual place called hell. But wherever other Satanists go, that is where I want to go. But first I want to live a long life, do crazy things and try everything!

Sophie

Has Satanism changed me?

Yes, totally. It has made me much stronger. It has allowed me to express my darker side without any shame. It has given spiritual meaning and understanding where I used to feel lost and confused. Because of Satanism I have become a witch, I have read and experienced things I would never have done otherwise. And it has brought me new friends and given my life a whole new direction and purpose.

What is Satan to me?

I think Satan is the sum of all the wisest souls from all of time (including my own) somehow linked together spiritually. It is the enemy of any person, religion or philosophy which tries to prevent people getting the knowledge to grow and evolve fully.

Do I consider myself good or evil?

In a Satanic context I am evil (I choose to eat the fruit of knowledge and any God that tries to stop me can fuck off) but in a worldly sense I am not such a bad person. I am certainly not evil in the way of terrorists.

What important lessons has Satan taught me recently?

That I am good at organising and that I know more than I thought about most things.

What do I think about other religions?

I spent many years of spiritual searching so I have always believed there is something valuable to be found in some religions. I still have a lot of respect for Buddhism and still use some Buddhist techniques and thought processes. I think there are useful things in Paganism and Hinduism too. I have never been much a fan of Christianity.

Am I going to hell?

Yes and it will be fun getting there! Seriously I think you have to learn and experience as much in life as you can before you die and then it either all ends or there is some kind of progression. All the people I like or love most will be going to hell wherever and whatever that is.

Cassie

Has Satanism changed me?

Yes of course. If I’m honest I’d say that I am a much darker and harder person than I used to be. I am less tolerant of fools and time wasters. Some of my beliefs and political views have also changed a bit. But I am much more confident and comfortable in my own skin. It has also helped me to make rapid progress in my career and let’s say, material security. However I would still describe myself as a kind and caring person with a social conscience.

What is Satan to me?

A spirit, an energy, a God that has been glimpsed in many of the Pagan traditions. A force of nature that we can connect with… But ultimately also a part of ourselves; our potential with all restrictions and limitations removed.

Do I consider myself good or evil?

This is something I am planning to write a full post about. I think it is a tricky question because those words have so many interpretations. I am fully, unreservedly and totally Satanic and if some people think that means evil, then so be it. However, if you take evil to mean being grotesquely cruel and violent like child molesters and terrorists, then I’m certainly not that. As for good, sometimes…

What do I think about other religions?

I have been a spiritual searcher most of my life and have sampled many things. I still think of myself as Pagan in many ways and I think a lot of religions have some wisdom in them. However I am becoming more and more atheist and coming round to the belief that overall religions do more harm than good. The idea of Satanism being an anti-religion has more and more resonance with me.

What lessons has Satan taught me recently?

Question everything but don’t ask stupid questions. Or don’t keep asking the same question just because you don’t like the answer. Also there may be more merit in some of the more traditional elements of Satanic belief than I first thought.

Am I going to hell?

Yes. Moreover, Hell is our Nirvana and can be touched in life as well as death. It is a place I feel at home with like minded souls, demons and the energy that is Satan.

Oh I think I answered in a slightly different order. Always the rebel!

 

 


What Is Satan?

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I think that we have several times tried to speak about “who” Satan is but perhaps a better question may be “what” is Satan?

We are Theistic Satanists which means we believe in and relate to an actual entity we call Satan. But what exactly is this Satan we relate to? Is it a God? If so, what is a God? Is it a person? Is it a thing? Is it all powerful? Questions like this make atheists suspicious and often dismissive. They tend to view all talk of Gods and Deities as superstitious irrelevancy or rubbish which misses the point that we are our own masters. Atheistic Satanists can be particularly strident on this theme. And that disturbs us to some degree because we respect atheistic arguments and even consider ourselves to be both humanist and atheists to a large extent. But we cannot deny we are also theists because we feel/believe/experience this thing called Satan as something powerful, real and actual. It is not however a God in the conventional sense of the word. It did not single handedly create the world (we believe strongly in the Big Bang and in evolution). It does not require worship. It does not demand the allegiance of all nor does it condemn or despise those who don’t recognise it. It simply is a thing which exists. It can be or become a part of us, but it can equally exist without us. It is not evil in the way some believe but it does not conform to the moral laws of any particular religion. It is a force of nature.

Sophie, Tina and myself probably agree with each other about what Satan is but we all express it slightly differently based on our own knowledge and experience. Perhaps between the three of us we can give some overlapping pictures that some may find enlightening.

Cassie 

For me the term “Force of Nature” sums it up. To me it is clear that the natural world (in which I actually include the whole universe or multiverse) is full of forces some of which we understand and some of which we don’t. We ourselves are a force of nature but we are only one type and there are many others. It is only in the last few hundred years of human existence that we have had a word for “gravity” (and it’s been a much shorter period of time in which we have had the beginning of a scientific explanation of what gravity actually is). Despite our lack of vocabulary and understanding however, gravity has always existed and has always had the same attributes or personality. I believe there are many such forces, some no doubt as yet undiscovered that play a part in our interaction with the universe. Satan is one of these. I believe Satan is an intelligent force that we can engage with. But even intelligence is hard to define. My computer probably makes more calculations every second than I could do in a year; does that make my computer more intelligent than me? My computer can’t paint pictures, can’t have original thoughts, can’t spin a spider’s web and can’t create new life. I can’t do many things a dolphin can do. A dolphin can’t do many things a slug can do. I don’t think we yet have a very clear understanding of what intelligence is and therefore I see no reason why some forces of nature could not also be forms of intelligence.

I was a pagan witch for a long time before I fully accepted Satanism. As such my views were polytheistic meaning I believed there were many gods or entities (forces of nature/nature spirits) and it was up to us which ones we felt closest to and connected with. As humans we tend to visualise these entities in terms we understand, often very humanised or symbolic. This is our short-hand, but it is probably not the whole truth. For me the attributes and nature of Satan can be seen distributed among many of the pagan male Gods and some of the female ones too. They are in my opinion aspects and perspectives of a single force of nature. I think Satan’s key attributes are creativity and enlightenment; it is a force which unlocks our own power and spurs us on to self discovery and self empowerment. Satan is feared by those who want to keep us neutered and dis-empowered. Once we open ourselves to this force of nature we begin to transform ourselves and take on those attributes in our own personalities. Things that were always potential or latent within us become actual and real. I think to some degree our intelligence merges with Satan’s and vice versa.

 

Sophie

I agree completely with Cassie but my interpretation is a little different. I see Satan more as an aspect of ourselves that is eternal and connected with that thing which Cassie calls a force of nature or force of the universe. I think we all have it within us, but it only becomes active in some of us when we have both the desire and some idea of how to activate it. Many people fear it because it forces us to look truthfully at ourselves and the universe, to give up fairy tales about the way the world is and the way the world began and to take full responsibility for our own lives and our own evolution. But once you activate it you feel different and you become aware of the power of this thing. Only then (in my case at least) do you really see this thing inside and part of you of being a force of the whole of nature; connected to everything but also separate from it.

I was a Buddhist before I become a Satanist. Some of my Buddhist friends thought it was quite a strange step for me to take but the more I talk to them about it the more they can see a kind of logic in my thoughts. As a Buddhist reaching Nirvana or Enlightenment is the main goal of life. Also I would say most Buddhists seek to experience or at least glimpse moments of enlightenment in every aspect of normal life. I still feel this way. I was a bit frustrated as a Buddhist because although I agreed with the goals; the methods and lifestyle seemed to go against my inner nature (and that is something which most Buddhists and Taoists think is not a good idea anyway). To me the philosophy of Satanism and the Left Hand Path were the things that made my journey to Nirvana possible and once I realised that I also felt the reality of this thing called Satan. I wasn’t expecting to. I thought I would be a very atheistic Satanist, but once you have experienced Satan you can’t deny it. So I also think it is a force of nature but it is also an aspect of ourselves and I think that once you realise one part you soon discover the other.

Tina

Well I can’t really explain what Satan is better than my Mum or Cassie but I agree with what they say. I think! Satan is just something I feel around me in the air, like electricity. When I imagine Satan, I see a big strong man with legs like an animal and horns sticking out of his head. I usually imagine he is smiling. He is really strong and cool looking.But I know that isn’t what he really looks like; it is just a shape for something that doesn’t have a real shape. I think it is something in nature that only some of us can see or feel. There is a boy in my class who is colour blind, he can’t see red or green. I guess he sees those things as grey or something like that. I tried to explain to him what red and green looked like but I couldn’t. I said green was like grass but he can see grass and to him it looks grey! So there was nothing I could say to explain it more. I think Satan is like that. I can kind of feel him but I can’t explain what that feels like to anybody who is colour blind against Satan. Does that make sense?

 


After Walpurgisnacht; Living Authentically

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When you have sex with somebody you love, the feelings and connection you have with your lover do not end with the climax but rather are multiplied and remain with you in a blissful afterglow. It makes you desire your lover even more and so each time you make love this afterglow becomes a more substantial and tangible aspect of what makes you who you are. That is how it is with Cassie and I; but it is also how it is with us and Satan…

A well planned and executed ritual can have a similar impact to sex (especially when there are sexual elements within the ritual itself). Thus a ritual can be a way of building up the connection between your self and your deity (or your higher self). Our Walpurgisnacht ritual was special in several ways, not least because it was the first we celebrated alone together.

For me personally I think it was a turning point. It was the closest I have ever felt to whatever Satanic energy is, and it left me with the clearest sense of dedication and purpose I have felt in my spiritual life.

There was a point during our ritual when contrary to my normal sceptical and quite dominant nature I wanted to submit and totally give all control of my will over to Satan. Anyone familiar with the emotions felt during sexual dominance and submission role play might understand something of what I was feeling. And yet…

Satan (whether that is my own higher self or an actual entity) did not and does not want that. I had a strong sense that what Satan actually wants is for me (and all people) to fully take control of my own life. I knew that before, but the drama of ritual made it clearer and hugely empowering.

I have always been a free spirit and independently minded but this ritual was like a sudden bolt of lightening which illuminated areas of my life which need work and could be more authentic.

By authentic I mean living according to what I truly feel and believe rather than pretending to accept things simply because that is the path of least resistance. (Thanks for that phrase Cassie!).

Of course there are some things which it is wise not to speak about too openly as Satanists. There are times when it is intelligent not to rock the boat. But it is important not to lose sight of the fact that the boat ultimately does need rocking and that the majority view is not necessarily the right one.

In my own case I have realised there are political things in Switzerland which I go along with although I think they are wrong and actually I don’t have to. There are things I don’t say in various aspects of life because my views would be unpopular or controversial, but some of them could be said without doing myself any harm. There are times when I allow people to assume things about me which are false when in fact “sometimes” I would be doing both myself and the other people a favour by not seeming to meet their false expectations.

All of the above things are probably true for most people at some time or other, maybe it is good to have a lightening strike once in a while to show up the areas where we could live a bit more authentically. I doubt if many people on their death-beds regret being themselves. In many magazines I have read that people who have been close to death or who have had near death experiences often say the lesson they took with them was to live more fully as themselves and not spend so much time trying to fulfill other people’s expectations.

In any case this is the message I took with me from Walpurgisnacht and I will adjust a few aspects of my life accordingly. It was not the only message though…

I must confess I have had some problems with using the term Satanist as the main description of my spiritual path. I have never doubted the philosophy and lifestyle of satanism since I began to investigate it, my problem is something else… I have always thought it important to be what we call in German, “konsequent”. Most dictionaries do not translate this word very accurately into English. It is not quite the same as Consequent or consequence. It sort of means doing what you say or that your actions flow logically from what you claim to believe. It is an important concept for me and is very similar to the notion of living authentically. It means the things you actually do or say in your life should accurately reflect the beliefs and values you claim to hold.

For many years I used the term Buddhist to describe my values and the change to Satanism seems like a big jump. I was not sure if I was really being Konsequent. Moreover, if you are really being konsequent can any religious, spiritual or philosophical label be meaningful if there is a possibility that it can change?

During our ritual this question came into sharp focus and so did the answer. It came into my head that Satanism is above all things a state of mind in which you question things without prejudice, including your own assumptions… A state of mind that values independence of thought, education and growth. It is a state of mind which is not static but which embraces change. In this way I have always been a Satanist and always will be, even if my understanding and interpretation of specific things changes along the way.

As a result of all these things becoming clear to me during our ritual I am feeling full of positive, satanic energy at the moment. There is a part of me that would like to go to my window and shout out to the world how beautiful and empowering Satanism can be. (Don’t worry, Cassie and my daughter are keeping me well grounded)! One thing is for sure and that is that I feel much more positive and confirmed in my satanic path going forward and there will be at least a few consequential changes.

Sophie

P/S. As some of you may know from previous posts, Cassie and I are both smokers. A while ago we were discussing the fact that these days to admit that you enjoy smoking is almost as taboo as admitting that you are a Satanist! Well since we quite enjoy challenging taboos we have decided to start a new blog project on the theme of smoking. If anybody is interested or would like to know more please visit us a at http://smokerswrites.wordpress.com/

pps  this is our second attempt to post this; WordPress seemed to be sleeping the first time round.


After Walpurgisnacht, Living Authentically

When you have sex with somebody you love, the feelings and connection you have with your lover do not end with the climax but rather are multiplied and remain with you in a blissful afterglow. It makes you desire your lover even more and so each time you make love this afterglow becomes a more substantial and tangible aspect of what makes you who you are. That is how it is with Cassie and I; but it is also how it is with us and Satan…

A well planned and executed ritual can have a similar impact to sex (especially when there are sexual elements within the ritual itself). Thus a ritual can be a way of building up the connection between your self and your deity (or your higher self). Our Walpurgisnacht ritual was special in several ways, not least because it was the first we celebrated alone together.

For me personally I think it was a turning point. It was the closest I have ever felt to whatever Satanic energy is, and it left me with the clearest sense of dedication and purpose I have felt in my spiritual life.

There was a point during our ritual when contrary to my normal sceptical and quite dominant nature I wanted to submit and totally give all control of my will over to Satan. Anyone familiar with the emotions felt during sexual dominance and submission role play might understand something of what I was feeling. And yet…

Satan (whether that is my own higher self or an actual entity) did not and does not want that. I had a strong sense that what Satan actually wants is for me (and all people) to fully take control of my own life. I knew that before, but the drama of ritual made it clearer and hugely empowering.

I have always been a free spirit and independently minded but this ritual was like a sudden bolt of lightening which illuminated areas of my life which need work and could be more authentic.

By authentic I mean living according to what I truly feel and believe rather than pretending to accept things simply because that is the path of least resistance. (Thanks for that phrase Cassie!).

Of course there are some things which it is wise not to speak about too openly as Satanists. There are times when it is intelligent not to rock the boat. But it is important not to lose sight of the fact that the boat ultimately does need rocking and that the majority view is not necessarily the right one.

In my own case I have realised there are political things in Switzerland which I go along with although I think they are wrong and actually I don’t have to. There are things I don’t say in various aspects of life because my views would be unpopular or controversial, but some of them could be said without doing myself any harm. There are times when I allow people to assume things about me which are false when in fact “sometimes” I would be doing both myself and the other people a favour by not seeming to meet their false expectations.

All of the above things are probably true for most people at some time or other, maybe it is good to have a lightening strike once in a while to show up the areas where we could live a bit more authentically. I doubt if many people on their death-beds regret being themselves. In many magazines I have read that people who have been close to death or who have had near death experiences often say the lesson they took with them was to live more fully as themselves and not spend so much time trying to fulfill other people’s expectations.

In any case this is the message I took with me from Walpurgisnacht and I will adjust a few aspects of my life accordingly. It was not the only message though…

I must confess I have had some problems with using the term Satanist as the main description of my spiritual path. I have never doubted the philosophy and lifestyle of satanism since I began to investigate it, my problem is something else…  I have always thought it important to be what we call in German, “konsequent”. Most dictionaries do not translate this word very accurately into English. It is not quite the same as Consequent or consequence. It sort of means doing what you say or that your actions flow logically from what you claim to believe. It is an important concept for me and is very similar to the notion of living authentically. It means the things you actually do or say in your life should accurately reflect the beliefs and values you claim to hold.

For many years I used the term Buddhist to describe my values and the change to Satanism seems like a big jump. I was not sure if I was really being Konsequent. Moreover, if you are really being konsequent can any religious, spiritual or philosophical label be meaningful if there is a possibility that it can change?

During our ritual this question came into sharp focus and so did the answer. It came into my head that Satanism is above all things a state of mind in which you question things without prejudice, including your own assumptions… A state of mind that values independence of thought, education and growth. It is a state of mind which is not static but which embraces change. In this way I have always been a Satanist and always will be, even if my understanding and interpretation of specific things changes along the way.

As a result of all these things becoming clear to me during our ritual I am feeling full of positive, satanic energy at the moment. There is a part of me that would like to go to my window and shout out to the world how beautiful and empowering Satanism can be. (Don’t worry, Cassie and my daughter are keeping me well grounded)! One thing is for sure and that is that I feel much more positive and confirmed in my satanic path going forward and there will be at least a few consequential changes.

Sophie

P/S.  As some of you may know from previous posts, Cassie and I are both smokers. A while ago we were discussing the fact that these days to admit that you enjoy smoking is almost as taboo as admitting that you are a Satanist! Well since we quite enjoy challenging taboos we have decided to start a new blog project on the theme of smoking. If anybody is interested or would like to know more please visit us a at http://smokerswrites.wordpress.com/


is Satan God?

(Sophie’s First Post on Devil’s Advocate)

I have always been an atheist. I’ve lived most of my life in Switzerland which has a Christian tradition but is mostly secular. My family and I were completely atheist though. I always thought the idea that there was some God somewhere sitting on a cloud in judgement over all of us was ridiculous… A bad fairy tale. Anyway I always believed in Science and still do. The Big Bang, evolution, natural selection; these are the truths that make sense to my mind.
But I think I always had a spiritual side too. I never thought religion and spirituality were the same thing. I do believe we have a soul and that our souls can grow and learn from one life to the next. The scientific part of my brain thinks this takes the form of some sort of genetic memory, like instincts…Therefore I became a Buddhist. Most Buddhists are in fact atheists. Nirvana is not some other heavenly place but more a state of mind or consciousness that can be reached with work and practice. I did a lot of practical things like meditation and chanting and found wisdom in many Buddhist teachings. It was good, but for me something was missing. It was almost too clinical and scientific…

Then I met Cassie and she told me about Satanism. I was interested and started reading up on it while Cassie was away on her travels. I was hooked! Satanism seemed more earthly and grounded in the true reality of human life. I’d never heard of the Left Hand Path before but it sort of made sense to me. It wasn’t a pretty or idealistic path in some ways but it seemed honest… Or at least if I was honest with myself, that was the path I was on; self centred, a bit hedonistic, but taking responsibility for my own actions. (I don’t like the term “self centred” because it doesn’t really mean what people think, but I can’t think of a better phrase. Maybe I will think and write more about that one day).

I really identified with the atheistic strand of LaVeyan Satanism. I think I would have hated Anton LaVey if I had met him in person, but I do really like his books especially The Satanic Witch. So in my mind I became a Satanist and told Cassie about it. I think at first Cassie was a bit worried that I was just trying to please her… Well we discussed about that… Soon though she fully accepted and supported me in my decision to become a Satanist.

There was something about Cassie’s Satanism which was a real curiosity to me though. She called herself a Theistic Satanist and seemed to believe in a real and actual thing called Satan. This seemed as silly to me as believing in any other kind of God Person. Now I knew Cassie wasn’t stupid or easily fooled so this really didn’t make sense to me. She told me that she believed Satan was more of any energy than a person but she still treated it like it had a personality and, although she didn’t bow down in worship exactly, she did show this thing respect and, well, love I suppose. It didn’t make sense to me! And yet this thing seemed to affect her in a positive way and give her spiritual life an energy and dynamism that mine still didn’t really have.

Cutting a long story short, I wanted to experience what she was experiencing and I asked her to help me achieve this which she did. I won’t go into details about the ritual we performed together but it was certainly life changing. And yes, I experienced this thing called Satan. Cassie had told me how it first affected her when she made that connection. With me it was similar but different. At first it was like I was suddenly plugged into an energy source like electricity, but instead of being killed by it, I just felt more alive than ever; there was a real thrill of feeling it pass through me. The next thing which was intense for a few days and which I still feel when I connect was a strange feeling of noticing and being amazed by the details of natural things. I had had this feeling before when smoking marijuana, for example you pick up a leaf and become transfixed by all the intricate structures in it. But this was much more intense and I was not stoned at all, in fact I could think more clearly and quickly than ever. I could see the beauty of the science that makes things what they are.

So I had had an experience I could not deny to myself. There was something called Satan. I had encountered it and I liked it. But perhaps you are thinking this was just some kind of supernatural “high”. I guess heroine can be intense and make you feel good for a while, but over time it can destroy you… But there was far more to it than what I have been able to describe. It was the beginning of an ongoing connection in which the main emphasis is on downloading information and power which can be used. I’d call Satan a teacher who understands his students well enough to educate them at their own pace. But does this make him God?

Well it depends what you mean by God.

I absolutely don’t believe in the Christian God, that old father figure who sits in the clouds judging us by things that don’t make sense. Nonsense. Nor do I believe that there was also a guy called Jesus who was a man who had a part time job of being God. Therefore it does not make sense to believe in the Christian idea of Satan.

However the universe is an amazingly complicated thing which even with the best of our science we only understand through a glass darkly. I think there are energies and forces which we don’t understand yet. Perhaps there is a force which some humans have encountered and then in order to explain it they came up with the Christian myth. Perhaps there are other entities in the universe which humans have interpreted as Gods. Perhaps the nature of these entities sometimes oppose each other and thus the stories we create to understand our experience of them also oppose each other. I don’t know. I only know that I encountered something which is on the same wavelength as me… Just far ahead of me. Something which not only opposes the Christian ideas I disagree with but also stands for something in its own right.

I don’t think that Satan is really a half man/half beast superhero who sits in a fiery place in the ground; but I do think that image is one of the things we can focus on to connect with satanic energy. I speak of energy but Cassie and I also believe that Satan has a personality, or at least boundaries. This means that some things are Satanic and some things aren’t. Some people claim Satan is evil, but I think that is just because Satan represents things they don’t understand or don’t approve of. In any case, intellectually I don’t think it is possible to see good and evil in anything other than relative terms. Satan just is what Satan is. Is a tree good or evil simply by being a tree? Is an elephant intrinsically good or evil? Or how about opium which can deliver people from pain or steal their lives altogether?

I still believe in the Big Bang. Did Satan make it happen? I don’t know but I do feel he, she or it was a part of the mechanism of it’s happening. Although… I also get a sense that Satan is particularly connected with the Earth in some way…

So is he a God? I don’t think so in the old fashioned understanding of the word, but maybe in a newer meaning of being part of the energy that is fundamental to the way the universe works… In that case yes. And certainly in the sense of being an ancient an wise source of power and knowledge. But unlike the Christian and many other religion’s concept of God, Satan’s power and knowledge is for sharing so that we can grow without limit.

Satan is my God in the sense that he stands for what I stand for, but just on a bigger scale. And here I come back to a more LaVeyan stance. Ultimately Satan is US; it is what we aspire to be with all the boundaries removed. It is what we could be and what we may become… And yet it already exists in the complexities of time and space that make up our universe. Satan is the realisation of our own potential. Hence we say, Hail Satan, Hail thyself!

Cassie and I are both teachers. We try to impart knowledge and help people to grow. I guess this is a concept that resonates well with all educators and parents who want the best for their students and children. So if God means the ultimate teacher, then Satan is surely our god.

By Sophie Sophie.JPG


Samhain/Halloween and Satanic Covens

At this time of year you will find hundreds of blog entries about Samhain or Halloween. I am not going to repeat the facts and details that are easy to find anywhere else on the net. This is a more personal reflection on what Samhain has meant to me over the years and how it continues to play a significant part in my spiritual life.

Since I first became a witch in my late teens, Samhain has always been my favourite festival of the pagan year. Tradition states that it is the time of year when the veil between the living and the dead is at it’s thinnest. It is a time of magic and deep mystery. I am sure that most of us who practice witchcraft and who study what is referred to as the occult feel something special at this time of the year. Maybe it is just the Autumn itself, the decay of last season’s leaves providing sustenance for life yet to come… The changing of the seasons… The coming of the cold and darker nights… Or maybe it really is a time when the spirits and the supernatural are more accessible and darker powers are rising. Personally I feel it in my blood and my bones as part of the natural cycle of the year, and it’s effects are as real and organic as the monthly cycle that makes me a fertile woman.

For most Satanists Samhain or Halloween is a special and sacred point in the year just as it is for Pagans. It is a natural time to utilise the particular characteristics of this season in ritual and celebration. It is a time to embrace the darker aspects of life and of our own psyche and to work with them. As such it is part of the balancing process which makes us whole. It also give rise to powerful magic and transformative psychic experiences. Many Satanic covens will hold rituals on this evening or as close to it as possible.

Last Samhain I had intended to formally join the coven I am now a member of. For various reasons it didn’t happen then, but took place a few months later. It was a transformative event when it happened though… A step I needed to take. There is nothing wrong with being a solitary practitioner as a Satanist, I think the majority of us actually take that path. However, being part of a community, learning from others more experienced than yourself and joining others in ritual where all barriers are broken down, can be a deeply enriching experience. For me it confirmed my stance and dedication to Satanism and gave me a new Satanic family who I know will support me in all things. (*Please see note at end of post). I also joined Aleister Nacht’s Satanic forum, an online community of Satanists who by extension are also like family now.

This year it is my girlfriend’s turn. She was following a Buddhist path when I met her but became increasingly interested in my beliefs. Some months ago she told me of her decision to become a Satanist. I wasn’t sure what to think at first. I rather liked the fact that she was a Buddhist and thought it was rather cool how our different beliefs complimented each other. But she was determined and it turned out had been reading about Satanism even more than I had. Moreover she convinced me that the Buddhist ideals she had been living with were not going to be abandoned, but would become part of her personal Satanic path, much as many of my Pagan values have remained with me. She made her own personal initiation ritual, and then we did one together. And this week she will fly over to take part in my coven’s Samhain ritual.  (She is not formally joining the coven as she lives too far away to attend regularly, but she will be honoured as a guest, as part of my family and of theirs). It will be the first time she has met my “Satanic family” and the first time she has taken part in a full on ritual with other Satanists. She is both excited and nervous, as am I. The first ritual with other Satanists is always a significant step on this path. We both know that by taking part in this ritual, she will indeed be changed and realigned in various deep ways.

My initial misgivings however have now evaporated entirely and I am looking forward to this event very much indeed. I am looking forward to the magic Satan will do in her, and to the things we can do together as a satanic couple.

And it comes at a time in my life where everything else seems to be upside down and in a state of flux. I’m just about to finalise the sale of my family home to pay for my mother’s care. Meanwhile my mother’s condition is deteriorating and I’m travelling nearly every week for work… So I am busy and there is a good deal of chaos and emotionally draining activity going on around me.

Yet in the midst of all this and during this acutely atmospheric time of year, I feel like Satan is strengthening the relationship which has become my rock.

Hail Satan!

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*For anybody thinking of joining a Satanic Coven.

I was lucky. I found a coven comprised of people I grew to like and trust. But I had misgivings, and indeed I faltered a bit before actually joining and becoming involved with them. There is nothing wrong with that; in fact it was a good test both for them and for me.

There can be a degree of sexual activity in Satanic ritual as well as other things which may not be to everybody’s tastes or beliefs. Nobody should ever feel pressured to do anything they are uncomfortable with. Genuine covens (of any path) will NOT pressure people to do anything they do not agree with. Clearly however there is scope for charlatans and unscrupulous practitioners to use the premise of Satanism as an excuse to indulge in their own perversions and massage their own egos by manipulating others.

Thus while a good and genuine coven can help you on your path, a bad one can do real harm and damage. Satanism is about self empowerment and anything which does not feel like that is not really Satanism in my opinion.

If anybody reading this is thinking about joining a Satanic coven, find out as much information as you can about them, take your time and take care. Keep in mind that you can learn and progress quite well in Satanism without being a member of a coven and it is always worth waiting and being really sure about any person or people you intend to get involved with.

Don’t forget that for every “Hail Satan” there is also “Hail Thyself” and YOUR will and YOUR choices are paramount.