A reflection by Cassie
It is New Year 2018 and I sit amidst the detritus of a week of parties and hedonistic excess. My girlfriend and my daughter have indulged themselves as much as I have. For the entire week we have only had contact with fellow Satanists. Perhaps more than ever before we have let our inhibitions go, indulged our vices and wilfully sinned to the maximum. All this framed with Satanic imagery, language and ritual. We are living the Satanic dream.I take a look at my naked self in the mirror on the wall and in my mind’s eye. I am naked and unashamed. I guess I am still in the mother phase of a witch’s life, but I am also a crone who can conjure the maiden glamour with ease. This body has known the darkest sensual and carnal delights. Most of my skin is marked with ink; my beliefs and personal landmarks etched into my flesh with blood, many symbols and images rich in diabolical meaning. I am totally defined by my Satanic beliefs and lifestyle. I am the kind of Satanist that would have disturbed and terrified me a decade ago. And that is a good reason to pause and reflect. The holiday is over and normal work life will resume soon, but first a time to think…
My only New Year’s resolution is to be a good Satanist. But what does that mean?
Satanism, like any other spiritual or religious practice, is a continuous journey. We are always on the path, learning lessons and moving forward, although the journey can take unexpected twists and turns at any moment. Our purpose is to develop and evolve, to become all that we are capable of in this lifetime and, perhaps, beyond that.
I am a Theistic Satanist. Against my scientific leaning I have come to acknowledge the reality of a force or being called Satan (known by some as The Devil) in the world and in my life. I love Satan. I love The Devil. He is my friend, my guide, my master and my God. I desire to be like him in nature and in essence and I have felt my mind, body and soul transformed, molecule by molecule since my commitment to him. It is with pride and thankfulness that I feel I can truly say I am now Satanic to the core of my being.
Many, perhaps the vast majority of people in the world, consider Satan to be evil. Even so, I am on his side. I consider hell as my spiritual home and it’s demons as my spiritual breathren. Whatever the consequences, I have chosen my side. If Satan is evil then, so am I. Yes I fully understand and acknowledge that in most people’s opinion I am evil. If evil defines my god then it also defines me; and I am not ashamed.
I renounce all other moral values and have committed to living by Satanic will and Satanic imperatives alone. In that respect I will be a good Satanist; for I will be a total Satanist in all that I do and believe. Moreover I will lead my family and my coven in that direction and take great pleasure in seeing each and every one of us, particularly my girlfriend and my daughter, fully shed all vestiges of our previous nature and become purely Satanic beings.
And yet… And yet…
Three years ago my mother died. She was a good and kind person and would have wanted me to resemble her in that at least. I miss her every day and would not want to let her down. She was not a member of any particular religious denomination but had what she would have considered to be broadly Christian values. She was somebody whom I could always talk to and whose opinion I respected. She accepted the various phases of life I went through and encouraged me on my spiritual searching. She didn’t necessarily agree with all the twists and turns my in my spiritual life, but she was interested and asked the right questions… She protected me as a child and accepted me as an adult. She was unphased by my bisexuality, and simply said that she hoped I would find somebody who would make me happy (which has happened). I used to talk to her about everything. But by the time I was becoming seriously interested in Satanism, the disease that would finally kill her had already started to ravish her mind. I wasn’t able to have serious conversations with her about anything anymore. And now with hindsight and with knowledge of the previous week’s kink and debauchery loud in my mind, I have to say that in all honesty I am not sure if she would understand, let alone approve of, the person I have become. And that hurts me. But I have made my bed and I must lie in it. Even if my mother couldn’t approve of all my choices, I am who and what I am.
When I became seriously intent on becoming a Satanist it was because I had heard his voice calling out to me from the depths of pagan tradition and even Christian scriptures. There was this dark and shadowy figure, a horned god, a green man, a force of nature; who had been imprisoned in the darker shodows of western tradition. His only crime, as far as I could see, was that he was NOT Christian and that he and his followers represented a threat to the religious authorities of the time. Time and again I was drawn back to the story of Adam and Eve in the Garden of Eden and the way in which they were “tempted” by Satan in the guise of an “evil” serpent. When the wool is pulled away from your eyes it is clear that the real evil character in that story is the “God” who wants to keep his children ignorant and enslaved so that they can never challenge him, and the hero is the serpent Satan who is encouraging the people to learn and grow and become independent. This is the Satan the Church authorities are afraid of and don’t want ordinary people to know about; Satan the empowerer, the liberateror. Satan is NOT EVIL and neither are we who follow him unless we choose to be.
Of course those of us who have knowledge and power could be evil if we chose to be; but it rather goes against the essence of Modern Satanism which emphasises taking control and responsibility for our lives. Evil in reality is the blissful abandonment of personal responsibility. It is a temptation I, and many others have had. Evil is living without care for the consequences our immediate desires and actions have on ourselves or others. “X” wants “Y” but “Z” is in the way so “X” kills “Z”. Evil is not caring about the fate of “Z”; and it is a very appealing and addictive way of being in which you can do anything at all without any concern about the consequences. But that is not what being a Satanist actually is. Satanism is about taking responsibility for yourself which logically means a degree of responsibility for those you interact with. In fact being evil is a luxury Satanists don’t have.
And anyway why should we Satanists allow ourselves and our behaviours to be defined by the enemies of freedom and personal empowerment? If they say we are evil, the reverse is probably the truth.
We live in a world where penguins in Antarctica are being poisoned by plastics we throw into the sea in Europe and America but I am evil because I blaspheme?
We live in a world of corruption where the rich routinely steal from the poor but I’m the evil one because I like Satan?
We live in a world where children and babies drown in the sea trying escape the bombs we supply to all sides but I am the evil one because I like kinky sex?
We live in a world where we have forgotten or just don’t care about the horrors of the holocaust and where extreme right wing popularism which despises education and knowledge is on the rise, yet it is me who is evil because I call myself a Satanist?
Perhaps it is about time we all got real! And I challenge everyone reading this (Satanist or Non Satanist) to seriously think about and dare to challenge their perspectives of what good and evil are.
As for myself, I am hedonistic and kinky as hell. I’m a witch who practices Satanic magic and ritual. I swear, I curse, I blaspheme. And I wouldn’t change a thing. I have examined and lived Satanic philosophy and find it is a perfect fit for me. I will be a good Satanist in that I will live filly in accordance with Satanic values. But I will also be good in the way my mother would understand; I will be kind and helpful wherever it seems worthwhile; and in that and other ways I will probably contribute more positive things to the world than most of those who condemn me. And as my mother raised me, I will raise my daughter with an urge for self discovery and independence and I will help and support her even when I question her choices.
If I ever get the chance to have a meaningful conversation with my mother again I am sure she will raise her eyebrows in response to some of the debauchery I have come to enjoy, and there are elements of my Satanic beliefs and lifestyle that will take a lot of explaining; but overall… I hope I will make her proud.
Now, with all that being said, it is time for me to sign off. I feel I have said all I have to say about Satanism on this blog for the time being. I am working on a book which may surface during the next year or so. In the meantime I will leave this blog in the capable hands of Sophie and Tina who have different voices and perspectives on Satanism.
I wish all our readers and especially those who have supported me in the past few years the very best wishes for the year ahead.
We are taking a breath of air in between the fun and debauchery of our Saturnalia festivities to thank our regular readers for their support and wish you all the best for the coming year.
There are times to be serious and times to have fun. As Satanists and hedonists we are fully enjoying this short season of parties and excess without guilt or shame. It is a great pleasure and liberation to be relaxed and open among people who share our views and our lifestyle. There is much to be said for being true to your real self, your true nature.
We do not expect many people to choose the path we have chosen, but we think it is probably true that when you find a path that resonates with something deep inside, it is best to explore it fully. And so, to anybody reading this, we can only suggest that if you are really true to yourselves in 2018, things will probably go better.
We wish you well.
Cassie, Sophie, Tina (The Satanic Ladies!)
Hedonism is one of the things we Satanists are most criticized for, even sometimes by other Left Hand Pathers. The idea of indulging as fully as possible in all the pleasures life has to offer, certainly seems to go against the grain of what most western traditions think is right and proper. Some would argue that hedonism places too much emphasis on physical and sensual pleasure or that it just trivializes life. I disagree. I often feel a deep spiritual connection to the universe as a result of hedonistic indulgence and as a Satanist I have come to see that fulfilling my own physical needs and desires is as important for my self development and growth as a person, as any amount of meditation or the spiritual practices of other religions.
In truth I was probably always a hedonist. The difference since I became a Satanist is that I no longer feel any guilt for my hedonistic impulses; and that makes a big difference. Moreover I have come to understand how and why hedonism is actually healthy and good. Keep in mind that according to common Satanic principles;-
1. Satan represents indulgence, instead of abstinence!
2. Satan represents vital existence, instead of spiritual pipe-dreams!
And, 8. Satan represents all the so-called sins, as they all lead to physical, mental, or emotional gratification!
I am certainly a hedonist and I have brought my daughter up with the same values. I have asked her to write a paragraph at the end because I think her perspective on the subject may be slightly different to my own. Before coming to my own conclusions however I will, later in this post, acknowledge some of the criticisms of hedonism and place my own hedonistic lifestyle within the satanic concepts of intelligence and responsibility.
Hedonism is of course not a uniquely satanic concept. Hedonistic values can be traced back in time at least as far as Ancient Egypt where, rich and poor alike, uncertain of what would happen to them after death, often believed they should maximize pleasure in life whenever possible. At various times in their long history the Egyptians indulged themselves in every sensual pleasure available including various drugs, food, alcohol and sex. They were not shy or prudish about such things. In Ancient Greece, hedonism became an important stream of philosophy.
The following extract comes from wikipedia and there are more details on the same page
Ethical hedonism is the idea that all people have the right to do everything in their power to achieve the greatest amount of pleasure possible to them. It is also the idea that every person’s pleasure should far surpass their amount of pain. Ethical hedonism is said to have been started by Aris
Ethical hedonism is the idea that all people have the right to do everything in their power to achieve the greatest amount of pleasure possible to them. It is also the idea that every person’s pleasure should far surpass their amount of pain. Ethical hedonism is said to have been started by Aristippus of Cyrene, a student of Socrates. He held the idea that pleasure is the highest good.
Hedonism is a sub-philosophy of utilitarianism, which says to act in a way that maximizes utility. Hedonists equate pleasure with utility and believe that pleasure is the master of all humankind, and acts as the ultimate life goal. Hedonists believe that there are only two motivators of human action, pleasure and pain, and that decisions should only be made to further our pleasurable experiences and minimize or completely eliminate our painful ones
tippus of Cyrene, a student of Socrates. He held the idea that pleasure is the highest good.
Hedonism is a sub-philosophy of utilitarianism, which says to act in a way that maximizes utility. Hedonists equate pleasure with utility and believe that pleasure is the master of all humankind, and acts as the ultimate life goal. Hedonists believe that there are only two motivators of human action, pleasure and pain, and that decisions should only be made to further our pleasurable experiences and minimize or completely eliminate our painful ones
We are so used to seeing things from a Christianized, western world view, that the truth of the above statement can take a long time to sink in; and some people are blind to it altogether. In short, pleasure is good for us, and taking decisions on the basis of what gives us pleasure is better for us as individuals and as a society than deciding in favor of what brings us sadness and pain. This might be in terms of deciding to eat that delicious cream cake rather than being hungry, but it could equally be deciding to feed somebody who is starving because ultimately their poverty makes us suffer too. Satanists always start from ourselves and work outwards but you don’t need to be a brain surgeon or rocket scientist to see the obvious logic… Enjoying the things we like makes us happy, whether it is stroking a cat or drinking a glass of wine. Experiments have shown that such things reduce stress and release endorphins which are good for our health and promote long life. Moving out from ourselves we soon realize that the suffering of others often has a negative impact on our happiness and therefore the obvious solution is to try and reduce the suffering of others. Some people don’t like this reason for being kind because it seems self centered; and indeed it actually is. But I think those who believe they are being purely altruistic are virtually always fooling themselves. In any case, just imagine how enjoyable the world could be if we made all our decisions based on what is most pleasurable for us;-and for others.
For many people who convert to Satanism, one of the biggest reliefs and psychological boosts they experience is the freedom from guilt that is often associated with the things they enjoy. Western society guilt trips everybody. I remember the first time I had sex… Even though I was above the age of consent, I came from a fairly liberal and secular family, my parents did not forbid or object to me sleeping with somebody, the sex was quite good and enjoyable, nobody got hurt, and yet, despite all that, I still had a sense of guilt and shame for not being a virgin anymore! That guilt just hangs in the air in western society! Imagine how much worse I would have felt if I had come from a stricter or more religious family. And then imagine how it feels if you happen to be gay in a society that is still uncomfortable with the idea… My first time was with a man, but when I finally got around to sleeping with a woman, despite being strong and determined, modern and proud, despite it being lovely, there was still that pang of guilt for doing something taboo. Okay, in my quiet way I was always rebellious and I went on to enjoy many forbidden pleasures long before I became a Satanist. But why should these pleasures be forbidden in the first place? Why should we feel pressured or obliged by society to forgo the things which bring us pleasure and therefore health? Satanism and hedonism argue that you don’t have to forgo those things.
I would not go so far as to say there is no place for guilt. Guilt is a normal emotion that most of us experience from time to time and in it’s proper context it serves a purpose. It is probably right and a useful part of self development to feel guilty when we have done something wrong (something which causes unnecessary harm to ourselves or others) however, is is wrong and self destructive to be surrounded by guilt just for being ourselves and enjoying ourselves.
From my point of view I think Satanic hedonism is healthy for the mind and body and if it includes confronting taboos, that also helps us to grow and come to our own conclusions about things.
Satanism does however require us to use our intelligence and warns heavily against stupidity. We are animals whose survival depends upon being kept in as good condition as possible. In order for our minds and bodies to be happy for longer we have to keep them healthy. An inconvenient truth is that some of the things which can satisfy our desire for experience and happiness, can also damage our health. Thus, we need to be intelligent and wise in our hedonistic choices. There is nearly always a compromise to be made between the gratification of the moment and the longer term consequences of any pleasure we choose to indulge in. In principle we can do anything, but not everything is ultimately good for us, and some things are very quickly harmful. Satan requires that we use our brains and our minds.
It is quite possible that if it had no negative consequences at all, I would be shooting up with heroine everyday. But it does have very serious negative consequences which I know about and some I have witnessed; so I choose not to get my pleasure that way. In fact heroine is one of the few things I would urge people never to even try. On the other hand, I do smoke cigarettes and cannabis which also cause harm to debatable degrees. We make compromises and informed choices. We cannot (and I do not) however claim to be unaware of the potential negative consequences our pleasurable choices may have. There is a good chance I will die younger than I might otherwise have done as a result of some of my hedonistic choices. (I would argue however that my lifespan may also be boosted from the positive effects of the pleasures I enjoy and the lack of guilt and resulting stress I have in comparison to others).
It is also worth noting that while the hedonistic aspect of Satanism might at first entice irresponsible people, such people never stick long at anything. For all it’s emphasis on hedonism, Satanism is often a refuge and rebuilding philosophy for people who are trying to overcome addictions of various sorts. I know of plenty of people who thank Satan and Satanism for empowering them to live a healthier life, free of addiction. For one thing, while we do not rule out chemical and substance fueled pleasures, our emphasis is on enjoying natural pleasures, including sex in all it’s forms, without stress or guilt. This often makes the use of expensive and/or illegal substances redundant.
And while it might sound a bit poetic and “New Agey” I do think some of the most profound pleasures are the simple things like a walk in the forest, admiring a view, appreciating art, reading a good book, or going to a concert. I believe we should always make time in our lives for things like that.
I will now hand over to Tina…
My mother and Cassie are Satanists. My father is not a Satanist but I guess he is still a hedonist in many ways. I have been a Satanist for three years, pretty much through the most important time of my adolescence, right up to now when I can hopefully think of myself as an adult even if I’m young. I suppose that in terms of how I live my life, Satanism and Hedonism is all I have ever known. You might think that would make me some crazy sort of wild child; I’m sure that is what a lot of people expect. But it is not really true at all.
I certainly am a hedonist, but I would say that Satanism has made me a sensible one. I could eat every ice cream and every cake that is put in front of me (I sure would be tempted!) but I don’t because I am not stupid and I want to keep my health and my looks. I could take every drug that was ever offered to me (which would be a lot) but I don’t because I want to stay healthy in mind and body. I could sleep with every man and woman that showed any interest in me (which would keep me busy for quite a while) but I don’t because I’d rather have good sex than cheap sex and I want to minimize the risk of catching a disease or getting pregnant. So I do enjoyable things in a fairly boring and moderate way. I’m sorry if that is not what people want to hear. (I’m not sorry really)!
My studies are important to me because I want to have an interesting career which brings in enough money to do fun things with. So I work hard. I’m kind of glad I smoke because that reduces my stress when I have a lot of reading or writing to do. And to relax after studying I sometimes have some wine or smoke some weed (which is totally legal where I live thankfully); but that is about as excessive as my drug use gets.
A good piece of advice my “Mothers” gave me is to become a connoisseur of all pleasurable things. Find out what I like and don’t like, refine my tastes, learn and increase the pleasure of all things. That works for everything from good food and wine to good sex. And now as a younger adult I am at a time of finding out about all these things, experimenting and becoming an expert in what makes me happy. In comparison to some of my friends who are still at the stage of drinking til they throw up and having sex they don’t really enjoy (because that’s what people do), I think our form of hedonism is much more healthy and wise. And unlike most of my friends I almost never feel guilty about the things I do for fun. (I’m not saying I’m perfect, I’ve obviously made some mistakes).
To finish this post I want to say something simple that sums up what Sophie and I have been trying to say. A lot of people seem to assume that hedonism and stupidity go together. They don’t. At least they don’t have to. Satanism actually calls us to be intelligent and wise in our hedonism; to do what makes us happy without feeling bad or guilty about it, but NOT be stupid.
Sensible hedonism is healthy for your mind and body.
Sophie and Tina
A few months ago the name Harvey Weinstein was synonymous with power and success in Hollywood and in global business. Now his name has become a byword for sleeze, manipulation, sexual exploitation and, perhaps in many people’s opinion, evil.
Everything the “Weinstein controversy” throws up disturbs us as women and as Satanists. There may be a degree to which his values and his lifestyle don’t seem very different to our own; yet we are repelled and appalled by many of the things he is alleged to have done. We have already heard some of his activities being described as Satanic; which brings those of us who practice real Satanism into disrepute. But we are Satanists and the uncomfortable truth is that aspects of Satanism may encourage the likes of Weinstein to do their thing. I would not be entirely surprised if at some point in time he is alleged to actually be a Satanist. And perhaps he thinks he is. So where does that leave us and our many fellow Satanists who are as disgusted by the things he is alleged to have done as most other people belatedly are?
His alleged crimes are that he used and abused his position of power to force or coerce women to have sex with him and that if they refused he damaged their careers; because he could. A secondary theme in the whole sordid affair is that other people were aware of what was going on, but were afraid to do anything about it.
Let me start by identifying the areas of Satanic philosophy and lifestyle which might at first sight seem to promote some of the sociopathic behavior Weinstein has been accused of. Most Satanists believe that we can, and sometimes should, use whatever advantages and powers we have (including use of Greater and Lesser magic) to get the things we want and need. We believe in the power of the individual and, having recognized that in ourselves, we tend not to be overly sympathetic to the type of “victims” who could help themselves but don’t. We are self centered and hedonistic. We allow ourselves to enjoy all aspects of life (including sex) to the full, without much regard to the prevailing morals of society or any particular religion. We can be predatory. There are people within Satanism who have a rather dismissive attitude to people who do not comprehend our beliefs, and some tend to treat all non Satanists with a contempt which is often deemed to be deserved. This attitude is something which we try to avoid in our family and our coven, but we have possibly slipped into it from time to time. In short all Satanists “could” be or become sexual predators. While they are in the minority, there are some “so called” Satanic covens which take advantage of desperate wannabe Satanists;- something we have warned about several times here on this blog.
So, on the face of it Satanism could seem to provide a front or even a justification for the kind of exploitative behavior Harvey Weinstein is said to have exhibited… But only on the face of it…
In reality Satanism is the antithesis of all that Harvey Weinstein is said to be, and said to have done. Satanism is about empowerment of the individual and that is one reason that strong women such as ourselves are attracted to it. Moreover, while rules in Satanism are rare, many of us adhere to the guidelines set out in various places by Anton LaVey.
This is what LaVey said about stupidity. “Stupidity — The top of the list for Satanic Sins. The Cardinal Sin of Satanism. It’s too bad that stupidity isn’t painful. Ignorance is one thing, but our society thrives increasingly on stupidity. It depends on people going along with whatever they are told. The media promotes a cultivated stupidity as a posture that is not only acceptable but laudable. Satanists must learn to see through the tricks and cannot afford to be stupid.”
This is very worth thinking about in light of the Weinstein controversy. We are very much on the side of Rose McGowen and the other “whistle-blowers” who saw and experienced what was going on and tried to do something about it. We are very much against the culture of mindful blindness and ignorance perpetrated by the media and the general public who knew what was going on, but didn’t want to know.
Perhaps most importantly in this context, the fifth of LaVey’s Satanic Sins states;- “Do not make sexual advances unless you are given the mating signal.” In other words no sex unless all involved give full and meaningful consent… Actually it goes further, it means don’t even start in the direction of sex unless you have very good reason to believe that such activity is desired by the other person.
Some Satanists, including us, place a lot of emphasis on enjoying sex in all it’s forms. It is a large part of the hedonistic indulgence we allow ourselves and we are not limited by the sexual or social laws and morals which many religions insist on. However, even among ourselves, sex only occurs between fully consenting adults and should never be forced or coerced.
Finally, while we will admit to being self centered in a positive way, we are totally against solipsism; of underestimating or negating the importance of others. We do not, and should not, expect the world to understand or agree with us, and we are often horrified by the herd mentality exhibited by others, but we never forget (even if they sometimes do) that other people are individuals too, and that we should treat them as we would want or expect to be treated ourselves.
In conclusion, Harvey Weinstein fails every test of what it means to be a modern Satanist. If the allegations against him are true, he is a piece of shit and should be treated as such. Moreover, if those allegations are true, he should go to prison and suffer the FULL consequences of his actions (which some may feel go beyond a simple prison sentence).
Perhaps the silver lining in this whole nasty affair is that it has brought certain unpleasant truths about Hollywood and the business world in general into the light. I doubt if there are many women who are surprised to see this proof of deeply entrenched sexist and exploitative attitudes come to light. Probably most men have been aware of it too. But nobody wanted to be the first to state the obvious and risk their careers. Predatory scum like Weinstein depend on that. It is the root of their power and influence.
Rose McGowen has made a number of allegations and I suppose for now we cannot know how true they are. However, if they are proved to be true, her courage in coming forward now and trying to take action at the time deserves praise and respect. If true, she is a woman who has suffered the indignity of violent rape which required hospitalization as a result. She was then blacklisted by people who were afraid of her attacker when she tried take action against him. (If true) her courage in pursuing the matter now and the determination she has shown in not letting him and others of his type get away with it, demonstrates incredible strength of character.
But her experience is not unique. I seriously doubt that you could find many women who have never felt compromised or abused sexually. We all know somebody who has been raped, and I’d guess we all have memories of somebody in a position of power urging or forcing us to do something we were not comfortable with. For decades and for generations it has simply been an unspoken fact of life for women. Mothers try to protect their daughters but always know that probably at some time “something unpleasant” is bound to happen. It has happened to Sophie and myself… Not in a particularly dramatic way but just as one of those uncomfortable lessons women have to go through…
We are glad our daughter is already a Satanist. We believe it gives her an edge and a degree of protection. Satanists enjoy sex but we put our own wants and needs first. We are strong and will take revenge on anyone who violates us or attempts to. We believe in ourselves and our own agency. We know our own will and won’t allow it to be trampled on. If I had already been a Satanist in my late teens or early twenties I think one or two unpleasant incidents wouldn’t have happened.
But for many, if not most women, those types of “incident” have just been facts of life.
It is time for change.
To all those pathetic, shadowy men who have been doing all the things Weinstein has been accused of and getting away with it;- your time is over and you deserve all the shit that is going to come your way.
Introduction by Sophie
We guard our privacy pretty well, but the fact that we are a family of three women who are all Satanists means we are quite well known in some circles and, it’s fair to say, a subject of curiosity to some. An acquaintance of ours who is a radio journalist here in Switzerland recently asked if we would do a radio interview about being a family of Satanists. After a bit of reluctance and a lot of conditions we finally agreed. Obviously we didn’t allow our real names or locations to be broadcast on the radio and part of our agreement was that we should be allowed to publish a written form of the interview on our blog after the radio show was broadcast. Thus we are publishing part of it here. Please bare in mind that the original interview was in German, so this is my translation and I am leaving out all the “errs” and “umms” that creep into normal speech. I have also edited out some parts of the interview, including part of the introduction, which are just repeating things we have already said here. Hopefully our readers will find our five minutes of fame interesting! The interview itself provoked a quite big response and we have been invited back to answer some listeners questions. As for our readers here, we are always happy to answer any sensible questions. Here is the interview…
Interviewer: I am sitting in a suburban kitchen drinking coffee with three polite and well spoken women. On the the surface there is nothing particularly unusual about the women. All three of them have tattoos, but then so do half the people in Zurich these days. The two older women are in a lesbian relationship but hopefully that fact alone should not raise any eyebrows in 2017. The youngest of the three is their daughter, she is in her late teens and looks a little older than that. If you passed them in the street you wouldn’t notice anything unusual about them. They are in many ways a modern version of the typical nuclear family. But the room opposite the kitchen where we are sitting now has been converted to a temple of sorts. It is dark, all the walls are painted black and there is a table on which a black candle is burning in front of a small statue of Satan. On the four walls of the room there are framed pictures of demons. The women I am speaking to are Satanists. All three of them. Their names are Cassie, Sophie and Tina.
So let me get the awkward question out of the way first. “Are you evil? Do you sacrifice animals or practice black magic?”
Cassie; “Well the easiest of those questions is the middle one. We don’t sacrifice animals. We don’t harm animals in any way. And before you ask; we don’t sacrifice virgins or babies either! The other two questions are a bit more difficult to answer because the terms you use mean different things to different people. We do practice what some call black magic; by which I mean we are witches and we practice any kind of magic that achieves our goals. There are some witches, such as Wiccans who have a kind of moral code attached to the magic they do which says they should harm nobody. We don’t make a vow to keep to any such code, but that doesn’t mean we spend our time creating spells to hurt people. It just means we don’t rule anything out.
Sophie; “For the record, I don’t think that so far any of us have ever done any magic that could be called evil or malicious. We just don’t rule out doing such things in the unlikely event that it became necessary. We do however sometimes do magic that helps us. We don’t have any rules about not using magic to make our own lives better.
Tina; “Black Magic of the type we use, also implies using techniques and working with forces that people of some other religions think are bad or wrong.”
Cassie “Which brings us back to the question of evil. Some Satanists, including Sophie and Tina, don’t particularly mind other people using the word evil to describe us. But it kind of sticks in my throat. I do lots of things, like practicing black magic for example, which some people think are evil. But I also do a lot of things which some people, probably most people, think are good. We don’t believe in absolutes and we don’t really think anybody else has the right to judge whether we are good or evil. Personally I prefer to use the word Satanic. I’m happy to be described as that.”
Interviewer; “Well let’s get to the basics. What does it mean to be a Satanist? What do you believe? Do you worship The Devil?”
Tina (Laughing) “Do you always ask three questions at once?”
Tina “It’s okay. But those are big questions. There are different kinds of Satanists just like there are different kinds of Christians or Buddhists. Probably, the biggest group of modern Satanists are those who follow the basic teachings of Anton LaVey. He became famous in the 1960s. He was a kind of showman really, but he popularized a form of Satanism which was like an antidote to Christianity and other organised religions. He was trying to challenge people to think for themselves and break some of the rules and taboos that Christians insisted on. But actually he was an atheist and so are most who follow his line of Satanism. For them everything is symbolic and the devil is in some ways our inner self; all the parts that other religions say we should be ashamed of…
Interviewer; “So that is the kind of Satanism that you follow?”
Sophie “Not exactly. We use Laveyan Satanism as a kind of guideline but while they are atheists we are not. We believe there is an actual force or being which we call Satan or The Devil. So in a way you could say we worship The Devil.”
Cassie; “But only in a way… We don’t really use the word worship in the way Christians understand it. Maybe a better word is “respect”. We Respect Satan, and we also interact with him… But even then it is not what most people think… We do not believe Satan is the way Christianity describes him, so we don’t actually think he is evil. We believe Satan is a force in the world that the organisations of other religions fear. Basically, if you look at the Biblical texts and other writings, Satan is simply saying that it is wrong to worship God or the institutions of the church. Satan is the voice saying we can work things out for ourselves and it would actually be better that way. Satan is the champion of those who don’t think any religion should repress or control people just to hold on to power. Satan is telling us we can be our own Gods. And Christianity and some other religions hate and fear that idea…
(The three of us then explain those ideas in a bit more detail, which we have already done in several posts on this blog. Then there is a section on how and why we became Satanists, which we have also written alot about in this blog)…
Interviewer; “So how does all this work out in daily life? Are you completely hedonistic? Do you have any morals that other people could relate to?”
Tina “You are doing the three question thing again!”
Sophie “Yes, we are hedonistic. Actually we reject the concept that it is wrong to be hedonistic. We also reject the concept of sin. So we enjoy our lives as much as we can and we place value on that. We treat ourselves well. We enjoy all the physical and sensual pleasures that come our way without guilt…”
Tina; “So we party! We drink. We smoke. We enjoy good food and having fun. And sex of course…”
Cassie; “And we don’t think there is anything wrong with that. But as Satanists we believe we should take responsibility for our actions. So while we have fun, the responsibility to look after ourselves is ours and so are the consequences. To put it simply if we want to go out and have some drinks we decide for ourselves how much is too much and how much of a hangover we are prepared to put up with. Of course you don’t have to be a Satanist to have that attitude; it is just sensible… But in a way, that is the point. Being sensible is pretty much fundamental to Satanism. And that applies to more serious things too, like what we do in our sex lives or even what we do or think politically or magically. It is all about thinking the consequences through and taking personal responsibility for our actions; even when it comes to having fun.”
Interviewer; “That all sounds very reasonable, but it also sounds very selfish. Don’t you care how your actions affect other people?”
Sophie; “This is a mistake in thinking that a lot of people make. Why should the fact that we think about ourselves and our own wants and needs mean that we don’t care about other people? It just means that we put ourselves first. I know some religions say that is wrong but we just think it is a sensible starting point. We do care about other people. We are not obliged to by some outside force, we just do. But we choose who we care about and what we can or can’t do to help them.”
Tina; “I could give you a list of what we do for other people but… That probably isn’t the thing to do… But you know… Cassie and Sophie work with young people who have difficulties. They are teachers. You can’t be a teacher without caring. We all give money to charities we like. I have organised help for refugees and I help out in an animal sanctuary… We do lot’s of things that most people would think are nice, or good… But in our free time we enjoy ourselves… We have fun… We have sex… We indulge ourselves… But we are not so stupid as to let those things get in the way of other important things we have to do to be successful in life.”
Cassie; “And as for morals. We have our own and we try to be true to ourselves. Basically we try to be kind and helpful most of the time but we don’t feel obliged to be nice to people who treat us or other people badly. In our daily lives… Well, Sophie and I have quite a lot of organisational work to do for our coven. We have the room you described earlier where we sometimes meditate or get together for learning or small family rituals… But otherwise, our daily lives are pretty much like other people… We have breakfast. We work. We have meals together when we are all home. Sometimes we argue. Sometimes we just chat. Sometimes we watch TV. Our daily lives are not very unusual.
Interviewer; “I’m sure when a lot of people think about Satanism they will imagine dark rites and rituals with perverted sex and lots of blood. Is there any truth in that?”
Cassie; “Well the true answer is that sometimes there is some truth in that. We do have rites and rituals which emphasize the darker side of life and death even. There is sometimes some sexual content in those rituals which we don’t see as being perverted, but admittedly our sexual morals are maybe a bit more liberal than the norm. And sometimes but not always, there is blood. Usually our blood, or the blood of animals which have already been humanely killed to be used for food. Yes, I know that can sound a bit grotesque to a lot of people; but a lot of those same people will routinely sit down and eat beef for dinner with the blood oozing out of it… In fairness there are also quite a lot of Satanists, some in our own coven, who are vegetarians and who do not participate in anything which involves animal blood. But the point of all these rituals is to change your mindset for a while, to break common taboos. It has been recognized for centuries in many different religions, that breaking taboos combined with the theater, the language and drama of ritual can have powerful psychological effects. Anton Lavey recognised that, and so do we and many other modern Satanists. In our group we feel it opens up a channel between us and Satan. In other groups they see it as opening up the inner self, the God within. We think that is part of it too.”
Interviewer; “Sophie, I am sitting here looking at you and your daughter and I would like to ask a blunt question. You are a mature woman and it is clear it is up to you how you live your life. But your daughter is so young and, dare I say, innocent. How can you condone or justify her getting mixed up in the kind of things Cassie has just described or even the wider implications of living as a Satanist? Don’t you worry about her as a daughter? Some… A lot of people would argue that it is your duty to guard and protect her against the very things you seem to be advocating.”
Sophie (I was bristling a bit about this question and my tone was a bit angry!) Firstly I love Tina very much, and yes, I am still her mother and I will always protect her as much as I can in all ways… And if anybody were to hurt her, they would come to wish with every bone in their body that they had not crossed me! But… I didn’t raise my daughter to be an eternal child. Part of a mother’s responsibility is to help their children grow up and become all that they can be, as adults. And I think I am doing that. Tina is not a child. I recognize that. She will be at university next year and she is making a life of her own. She is already an adult. Young…yes. But an adult all the same. And I welcome that. She is NOT innocent and wouldn’t want to be. I don’t care what other people think of me, but I think there is something beautiful about your child discovering the riches of the adult world and learning some of the pleasures we sometimes take for granted when we are older… And also of course some of the problems and extra responsibilities that go with being an adult. And as I don’t think there is anything at all wrong with the things we have described in the interview today, I also don’t think it is wrong for my daughter either. About the ritual side… Tina does not participate in our own coven at the moment. Partly because we do have an age limit and would not allow people to join us until they are eighteen; and Tina still has a few months to go before she reaches that landmark. But anyway after lots of discussions we all decided that it would not be right at first for her to join our own coven, so she is in training in another coven… We do however do a few smaller rituals and magical workings as a family group. We feel it brings us closer together.”
Tina; “I’d just like to say that I have a very close relationship with my mother which is more than a lot of my friends do. My Mum and I do argue sometimes but basically we are friends and we trust each other. I study hard. I don’t do any illegal drugs. I pay my way at home. I don’t cause problems. But I’m not innocent and never wanted to be. I have a boyfriend. I’ve had other lovers. I do go out and have fun. But if I have problems, which is just normal because everybody has problems… My Mum and Cassie are the first people I come to. I can talk to them about anything and I trust what they say and mostly take their advice. How many other teenagers can truly say that?”
Interviewer; “Well we are coming to the end of the interview and have to finish off. I’m am sure there is much more we could have talked about and which you might have liked to talk about. So can I ask each of you to sum up in your own words what you feel you gain from being a Satanist? And feel free to add anything you think is important which we didn’t have time to go into detail about.”
Cassie; “To put it simply I gained in every way. I learned to like and understand my whole self better. I became more confident and more successful. My life has been more interesting, more rewarding and more fun since I became a Satanist and I have gone in all sorts of directions I never dreamed of. Having said that, I know that Satanism is not for everyone… And we still have friends of different religions or of no religion, but I should also point out to listeners that there are some crazy people who pretend to be Satanists, just as there are idiots in all religions. So if anybody is seriously interested in finding out more they should do a lot of research and be quite careful when they are first starting out.
Sophie; “I found when I came out as a Satanist, it was like a weight was lifted off me and I could be myself, my real self, for the first time. Like Cassie, it has taken me in all sorts of new directions. I would say however that we didn’t really discuss the details of all the different groups and types of Satanists. I was an atheist before becoming a Satanist and thought that was how I would stay… But I came to see things another way. Atheists are the biggest group of Satanists though and I would kind of recommend that type as the best way into Satanism for anybody that is interested in finding out more. The emphasis of Satanism is self improvement and self empowerment.”
Tina; “I think Satanism has given me a bit of an edge… A kind of protective coating… It also helps me to understand people and life much better. Some parts of it are like a free psychology course! Like Sophie said, it is mainly about empowerment. Actually I also like Satanism because it is scientific. Today we have mainly spoken about some of the things people who are not Satanists would probably think about… But when you study and find out more about it, you realize it is very scientific and it respects science. That is important to me.”
Cassie “Just one quick thing I’d like to add. Being a Satanist doesn’t make you a good person or a bad person. It just helps you to understand yourself better and empower you to achieve all you can. Your listeners may know some people who they think of as very good, kind people, and they might just turn out to be Satanists. And we all know people of other religions like Islam and Christianity who think they are doing good but really aren’t. I’m not saying it’s impossible, but you don’t often find homophobic, bigoted Satanists!”
Interviewer. “Thank you for your time. So that was three real live Satanists. As I said earlier, you could pass them in the street and you would have no idea about this aspect of their lives… A lot of what they say sounds reasonable, but is it? Let us know what you think.”
I suppose this post is vain, but that is ok, we are Satanists after all!
Apart from being Satanists, another thing our family share is a tattoo fetish. Cassie and I became addicted to ink in our teens. At first our tattoos were small and discrete. After university we both had “respectable” teaching jobs and as this was about twenty years ago when tattoos were not quite so common and popular as they are now, we felt obliged not to get inked anywhere that was too obvious. By the time we met however we felt confident enough in our respective jobs that we encouraged each other to be ever more daring in our inkwork. The result is that by now there is no disguising the fact that we are heavily inked women and when we spot some virgin skin on ourselves we immediately plan how to cover it in ink! Yes, by some people’s standards we will be ugly, ink stained old crones one day. Good. We wear our tats with pride and we love them. I can’t pretend I was worried or concerned when my daughter Tina got her first tattoos. I insisted that she wait until she was sixteen and since then I have made it clear it is up to her what she does with her body and how she decorates it. Cassie and I have tried to encourage her to save her money to get work done by really good tattoo artists, rather than go for anything cheap and quick; and I am pleased to say she has taken our advice. She has turned out to be as addicted to ink as us and these days there is less prejudice against tattoos; so while hidden from everyday view she has more and bigger tattoos than we did at her age.
While doing a bit of research for this post I was amused to find that some extreme Christians regard ALL tattoos as Satanic and I read one article that claimed that getting a tattoo emulates a Satanic blood ritual! On the one hand I find it quite comforting and amusing to think I was being a good Satanist long before I thought I was. On the other hand of course such claims are blatantly ridiculous! And of course there will be some normal Christians reading this who may well have as many tattoos as we do.
It should also be said that there are some Satanists who, for various reasons, don’t think tattoos are a good idea. Clearly we are not in that category. We take the view that we are owners and masters of our own bodies and souls, and what we do with them is our business alone. Ultimately we are the final judges.
Like most people, we started getting tattoos for artistic and aesthetic reasons. We liked the way tattoos looked on other people and imagined how we would look, decorated in a similar way. Once we got started we found we enjoyed both the process and the finished result. Vanity certainly plays a part. We like the way we look with our inked skins. In one way getting a tattoo is like having a new hairstyle or choosing new clothes. It is a lot about projecting an image; being seen in the way you choose to be seen. But tattoos can be a lot more personal and intimate; and in principle they are permanent. Therefore tattoos tend to mark important moments or commitments; while they sit on your skin, they represent what is in your soul.
Also, the process of getting a tattoo does involve a degree of pain and blood. Personally I think the discomfort of the process adds value and meaning to the finished result. Perhaps also there is at least a small element of sado-masichism as well. I have noticed that many of us with tattoos tend to, let’s say, blur the distinctions between pleasure and pain in other areas of life.
While a minority of extreme Christians may regard all tattoos as Satanic, our first tattoos were not intended to be Satanic at all. We did however reflect our spiritual leanings of the time in our tattoo choices. I have several Buddhist inspired tattoos and Cassie has several pagan related ones. We both also have some tattoos that have no obvious spiritual connections; we just think they look nice.
In the picture above however we have tried to highlight the tattoos which do have a satanic connection.
In the top left you can see Tina’s very new goat’s head tattoo which is located in her middle just below her breasts. It is large and was rather expensive and she is very proud of it. She already had a small Baphomet tattoo on her shoulder, but she wanted something more dramatic and darker to mark her more adult commitment to Satanism and her new coven. I already had something similar, but slightly more suggestive, which you can see on the bottom left. For me it symbolises the deep and intimate connection to Satan I have felt for the past few years. You can also see me in the centre picture. There is a circular mandala from my Buddhist days on my stomach and I have had the vine design coming down on to my breasts since I was in my twenties. I added a darker centre-piece to that soon after becoming a Satanist. It is actually based on a design from the Mexican “Day of the Dead” and sort of represents overcoming fears and taboos.
Cassie had the big moth design over her chest before becoming a Satanist, but we think it kind of indicates the way her thoughts were going. She didn’t want anything as obviously “pretty” as a butterfly, but something that can be seen as beautiful or ugly depending on your point of view. It is also something that comes out in the darkness and which is a symbol of metamorphosis and change. Around her waist she has a very intricate Celtic knot band with hundreds of symbols in it and a Satanic pentagram in the centre. Below that, in a fairly intimate position, she has a Lucifer sigil which she had done to mark her “conversion” to Satanism from Paganism.
Our bodies get marked by life whatever happens. Injuries, scars, pregnancy and the aging process all leave their mark together with the blotches, moles, freckles and skin tones we are born with. The idea of permanency bothers some people. Somebody once said to me but suppose you don’t like that design in a few years? And with my more spiritual tattoos people have said but what if you believe different things in the future? My answer is simple. However I may change in the future, the things that are happening now and the things that happened in the past are all part of the process of growth that result in me being me every day. I don’t regret for a second my time as a Buddhist or the tattoos that mark that period; it is still a part of me and was a significant step along the route to me being what I am now. We are all the sum of our parts and of our experiences and tattoos are a way to represent some of those things artistically.
Perhaps Tina will turn away from Satanism one day. (Although I doubt that very much). But who knows, she may give up any form of spirituality or she may become a Born Again Christian. (I’m really in the land of fantasy now!) But even in that case, the fact that she once was a very committed Satanist and has that experience in her mind and soul reflected by a tattoo on her body, will still be a hugely important factor in what makes her the person she is at that time.
There are some Satanic and other religious or spiritual groups which require significant and sometimes dramatic signs and rituals to confirm membership or commitment and I can see why such a big spiritual decision could be seen to require that. For us however, a tattoo serves that purpose, and can be much more personal and beautiful.
We were apparently thrown out of a beautiful garden because we questioned authority and chose to think for ourselves and listen to a voice the authority disapproved of. We were then condemned to walk through history feeling eternally ashamed of ourselves. But then the authority told us that if we owned our shame and accepted that we were worthless we could be forgiven and spend an eternity in paradise worshiping the authority who condemned us.
That is the Christian narrative but it is repeated in many forms in many other religions and philosophies. It is the stuff of dystopian science fiction novels. And within that narrative is also the prescription for every kind of brainwashing technique that has ever been used. “You are bad and useless as you are, but submit your will and your agency to us and we will protect and save you.” (Drugs may add to the power of the message).
But subverting these psychological mind control programs there is often a ghost in the machine. There is a voice saying, “This is not right. This is not how it has to be.” The authority machine is aware of this glitch in the program but can’t get rid of it. Instead it tries to associate the glitch with all that is bad and frightening. The voice is evil. Listening to the voice is evil.
The voice is known to some of us as Satan. By listening to that voice rather than the authority that wants our unquestioning obedience, we are breaking the taboo and so we must be described as evil as well.
The writers of this blog do not believe in the literal truth of the Christian creation myth or any other creation myth. We believe in science and the big bang. A few centuries ago that in itself would be enough to have us branded as heretics and possibly put to death. However, we do believe that in the pre-scientific myths and philosophies about the creation and the nature of the universe, there are hints at the truth. We believe in something similar to Jung’s collective consciousness; that as parts of the universe, we are born with a primeval instinct about who and what we are and where we came from. It is a truth that is glimpsed in shadows, dreams and stories. A truth, the authority doesn’t want us to realize. It is a truth the authority brands as evil and dangerous and so forbids us to know or search for. A truth hidden in the darkness.
We are creatures of the darkness. We are seekers in the forbidden territories. We are breakers of taboos. We are Satanists.
And what of that voice that whispers to us in the darkness? The one who calls us to self discovery and full self awareness? The antagonist and the questioner; the rebel and the ghost in the machine? The Satan?
He can be glimpsed in the most ancient religions known to humanity, often portrayed as an aspect of nature or possessing the guile or form of various animals. Indeed, in earliest times a primal force of nature, neither good nor bad, simply a force to be reckoned with. As communities became more organised and civilized so religious ideas became more complicated and sophisticated. In ancient Egypt there was Set, often depicted as a barely recognizable animal, but seen as powerful and clever; a God it was wise to have on your side. But as Set was seen as a God of foreigners and Egypt suffered several invasions he began to be portrayed more negatively. And as powerful leaders rose up in later Egyptian epochs who sought to unify their subjects under one power and one religion, Set was cast in the role of the evil one and other myths and traditions about him were lost. Meanwhile Het-Hert, the much loved Egyptian Goddess of love, sex and motherhood was probably the archetype of the Golden Calf, and The Whore of Babylon, despised by the followers of Yahweh. Possibly she was also seen in dark form as Lilith in Hebrew tradition.
Meanwhile in the Hindu traditions of India and The East, there was Kali. Kali is the goddess (or Devi) of death, time, and doomsday and is often associated with sexuality and violence but is also considered a strong mother-figure and symbolic of motherly-love. Kali also embodies shakti – feminine energy, creativity and fertility. While neither Indian nor Egyptian traditions were as strictly dualistic between good and evil as modern western religion tends to be, it does seem that Kali is increasingly portrayed as evil when seen from a western perspective.
In Europe there were many pagan traditions and personifications of God that pre-dated and then conflicted with Christianity. One of the best known from Greek and Roman times was Dionysus. Essentially a god of good times and hedonism, god of the vine, grape harvest, wine, ritual madness, religious ecstasy, and theater. But as these things were later viewed as dangerous and seditious by the more and more dominant and all conquering Christian authorities, later manifestations of Dionysus; the Horned God and the Green Man, were accused of being evil wherever they dared to show their horns, and went into hiding. But in fact they were only ever evil in so far as they and their followers did not submit to the authority of The Church.
Stories and myths, just stories and myths… Yet the truth lurks here waiting to be rediscovered by those brave and insightful enough to break the chains of conformity.
Myths are explanations fit for their time. Today the truth might seem more reasonable if found in a particle accelerator and described in the language of quantum mechanics. But it is still possible to seek the truth and broaden your horizons by strength of will alone.
Satan is the voice that calls you to find yourself and reach your full potential. It may be your own voice, the echo of a primeval truth glimpsed in thoughts and dreams.
There is nothing good or noble about ignorance posing as innocence. We were not meant to stay in the garden living as gullible children forever. We were meant to grow up. We were meant to explore. We were meant to experience. We were meant to learn and grow. We were meant to be all we can be and recognize our own power and creativity.
We were meant to reach for the stars.
Hail Satan! Hail ourselves!