Black MagicPosted: June 15, 2013
I have been debating with some Satanist friends if it is possible to be a Satanist and not be a witch. I think it probably is. Most of the Satanists I associate with practice and use witchcraft to some degree at least, but I can see the possibility of adopting Satanic beliefs and values without using magic.
I couldn’t though.
I have been a witch since my late teens; possibly longer if you adhere to the belief that witches are born not made. My interest was kindled by books and I began to study and practice alone. There is undeniably something very thrilling and unforgettable about the moment you first do a spell that clearly works. Suddenly all doubts are gone and you realise you have opened a Pandora’s box that you will never want to close. Magic then becomes one of the tools you use on a daily basis to get things done although it never looses it’s mystery.
I then became an acolyte in a Wiccan coven and learned much more. I think that period also changed me into a person for whom magic would always be a fact of life;- a witch. I have the deepest respect for the High Priestess and Coven Maiden who taught me most of what I know and still use magically. I still feel very Wiccan in many ways… And yet I always had problems with the Law of Threefold Return and the Harm None rule that most Wiccans adhere to. I believe in karma to a degree but the threefold law of return always seemed a little to contrite, false and restrictive to me. As for “Harm None” even my High Priestess agreed that if taken to extremes that rule would mean that nobody would ever dare do anything magically.
I drifted away from my Wiccan coven, not because of any personal differences but simply because I was travelling a lot. Over the years I learned more magic through occult books and various people I came across. With Satanism came some new nuances and methods and I could now describe myself as a Satanic Witch.
This does not mean that I have ever had any desire to do wicked or evil things with my magical knowledge. I do admit though that I do sometimes use magic “selfishly” for personal gain. Some would call that “Black Magic”. I also concede that in certain situations I might indeed be willing to cause harm to somebody using magic; and that would be seen by many as black magic. Lastly the very methods and symbols I use as a Satanist and some of the energies I am willing to engage with would almost certainly be seen as dark or black magic by quite a lot of occult practitioners. So I suppose that by many definitions I do engage in “Black Magic”.
Personally I don’t really believe in the black and white dichotomy that some magicians speak of. I think that anybody who progresses in magic is sooner or later going to be operating in the huge grey area; just as anybody who lives a full life is often going to have to make compromises between ideals and practicality. Oddly I think my old High Priestess would probably agree with me… Wiccans are keen for historical and cultural reasons to be seen as primarily “White Witches” and their cultural acceptance depends to some degree on that perception. In truth I think they operate in the same murky grey areas that I do. I don’t actually see any way to avoid it.
I try not to harm people with magic or in any of the other things I do. I also try to be helpful and to do good where I can; both magically and in the more mundane aspects of life. But I won’t promise “never” to harm anybody. I won’t claim always to be altruistic or never to use my various skills for personal gain. I don’t know if that really makes my magic black, I feel I am just being honest.