One year on…Posted: June 3, 2013
A year has passed since I started this blog. Time for a little self indulgence and reflection.
This blog began as part of my own personal “coming out” as a Satanist. With hindsight I can say that I had probably been a Satanist in all but name for at least a decade; or at least that was the clear direction of my path. But it took me a long time to fully accept and embrace that fact. . Perhaps the biggest stumbling block was fear of how other people would react to me;- given all the negative and sometimes horrific things Satanism is often associated with. It was my then new girlfriend who gave me the confidence to take the next step. She was the first person I told about my deepest beliefs and her acceptance was total despite the fact that she was not a Satanist herself.
At first I was not sure if I would even make this blog public. I cringe a bit when I look back at some of my earlier posts which seem a slightly naive and far too apologetic from the perspective I am at now. But they were all part of the journey. As a Satanist and as a human being I am still learning and still growing; and always will be.
I have no regrets at all about my decision to fully commit myself to Satanism and to do so as openly as possible, I only wish perhaps that I had taken that step earlier. During the last year I have made many friends in various Satanic circles, I have joined a Satanic Coven with whom I am able to participate in rituals and celebrations and I have become a member and moderator of a growing Satanic forum. (Forum Link) Satanic philosophy, ritual, spirituality and lifestyle are fundamental aspects of who I am. And I like who I am.
I hope my blog reflects my growing confidence and pride in Satanism. Over the year my readership has grown significantly and I would like to thank all those who have supported it. I hope my followers and other readers will continue to find things of interest here; and that I am able to convey another, more positive side of Satanism as a route to personal development and empowerment which is not often seen in the media.
That is enough looking back. Satanism challenges us to re-evaluate things all the time, to question deeply and to grapple with truths that are often difficult or unpleasant about ourselves and the world around us. The aim is to become better, wiser, more effective and productive people. Some call it self deification. Some might just call it personal progression. We can rest sometimes. We can indulge ourselves to the degree we feel we need. But the main impetus is always onwards. I have many more topics to think and write about, many difficult questions to ask and many more lessons to learn.